Two weeks ago I had my first fill in the last year. How did that work out you may wonder? Well for the first week I wasn't even sure he had filled me. I could still eat about the same amount I was eating pre-fill, maybe a smidge less. Nothing changed, all is well, the worst side effect I suffered was that my protein shake and grande latte that morning made me fell quite full. What the heck is going on? Did he do anything? Did I pay $50 to not have anything done? Weird. This was definitely weird.
Then my period finished, and everything changed. It was weird, one day I can eat like I have been the last few months, the next day I am blocking at every solid meal I consume. I went roughly 36 hours without any real food, because I blocked and threw-up my dinner, had my protein shake and coffee, then blocked and threw up my lunch. By dinner I thought I was going to die. Ok, maybe not die, but I was exhausted and my head was pounding so badly I couldn't even see straight, let alone think. I managed to get soup in without any issues and as I was eating I could feel myself getting better. My body was definetly pissed about the lack of nutrition. Suddenly I can feel the fill; the restriction is there. My portions have decreased, and eating meals is back to a minimum 45 minute endeavor (if I don't want to block), and best of all, I am loosing weight. Actually watching as the numbers go down on my scale!!! Ok, I should be so excited about that; it's not about the numbers but how your clothes is fitting, right? Whateves! The numbers are moving!!!
Well that is it for now. I am eating slowly, cautiously and loosing weight. What more can a girl ask for?
I will post pictures soon as the last photo is like, 4 or 5 months old.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Monday, March 5, 2012
I'm full...
Literally, well maybe not literally, but I did get my first fill this morning in a year. Last time I got a fill? March 7, 2011. Weird, right? It just worked out that way. I would have done it last appointment, but I had to cancel the last appointment due to a sudden and unforeseen trip to VEGAS!! Now that's good times, but not the reason for the story.
I survived dinner. I feel like I should have some kind of support group, like an alcoholic or something for this kind of event. "Hello, my name is Moriah and I survived dinner."
It all goes back to finally committing to getting a fill done. I set a date and excitedly await it's arrival. I know that I need something. Weight loss has come to a serious crawl. And though my MD says that I need both exercise and diet, the exercise is not going super well (damn gallstones!). I am psyched for this fill, but ever so slightly afraid. The last time I had a fill, it took me almost 8 months to adjust and almost a full year to make it to a point where I can eat almost normally; well the new normal for me anyways. So needless to say I was slightly...nervous. But then my fabulous cousin calls me and says she will be in town and we make dinner plans. Guess what night we make plans for??? Anyone? Yes, that's right. The evening of the day I have my adjustment. Let me just say that I was searching for a restaurant that had amazing soups AND great food. Challenging at best, btw.
So I manage to spend the day without blocking. I have a protein shake for breaky, followed by my am coffee, only I realize that I can't drink them so closely together now (cause I am freakin' full). I have a yop around 11 and 1/2 a can of pea soup for lunch. Super exciting part about lunch? I manage to eat 5 soda crackers while eating my soup!!! Unheard of! So I am feeling confident about my upcoming dinner. But, let's be honest. I haven't really tested myself yet; I haven't even managed to eat a solid thing yet.
Restaurant time. Jules and I meet up, solve world hunger AND manage to have a great dinner. Best part about dinner? I didn't puke!!! Saddest, but totes ok, part about dinner? Took me an hour to eat two crab cakes and a scallop (thanks for sharing Chris). Ok, best part #2 about dinner? Bill came to just over $16! LOL!!! Seriously, if you want to lose weight and save money, just get the lap band! It's multipurposed.
I definetely have not found the answer. I need to be careful. Take my time when I eat, or suffer the consequences. Hopefully I survive tomorrow, as I am having leftover spaghetti (Guy and the girls had it for dinner).
Things I want to mention:
I survived dinner. I feel like I should have some kind of support group, like an alcoholic or something for this kind of event. "Hello, my name is Moriah and I survived dinner."
It all goes back to finally committing to getting a fill done. I set a date and excitedly await it's arrival. I know that I need something. Weight loss has come to a serious crawl. And though my MD says that I need both exercise and diet, the exercise is not going super well (damn gallstones!). I am psyched for this fill, but ever so slightly afraid. The last time I had a fill, it took me almost 8 months to adjust and almost a full year to make it to a point where I can eat almost normally; well the new normal for me anyways. So needless to say I was slightly...nervous. But then my fabulous cousin calls me and says she will be in town and we make dinner plans. Guess what night we make plans for??? Anyone? Yes, that's right. The evening of the day I have my adjustment. Let me just say that I was searching for a restaurant that had amazing soups AND great food. Challenging at best, btw.
So I manage to spend the day without blocking. I have a protein shake for breaky, followed by my am coffee, only I realize that I can't drink them so closely together now (cause I am freakin' full). I have a yop around 11 and 1/2 a can of pea soup for lunch. Super exciting part about lunch? I manage to eat 5 soda crackers while eating my soup!!! Unheard of! So I am feeling confident about my upcoming dinner. But, let's be honest. I haven't really tested myself yet; I haven't even managed to eat a solid thing yet.
Restaurant time. Jules and I meet up, solve world hunger AND manage to have a great dinner. Best part about dinner? I didn't puke!!! Saddest, but totes ok, part about dinner? Took me an hour to eat two crab cakes and a scallop (thanks for sharing Chris). Ok, best part #2 about dinner? Bill came to just over $16! LOL!!! Seriously, if you want to lose weight and save money, just get the lap band! It's multipurposed.
I definetely have not found the answer. I need to be careful. Take my time when I eat, or suffer the consequences. Hopefully I survive tomorrow, as I am having leftover spaghetti (Guy and the girls had it for dinner).
Things I want to mention:
- For the first time in... well years, I weigh less than my husband!
- I am once again excited and hopeful about this whole thing - I just might begin to lose weight with some... speed?
- I really need to write down my questions for the MD (as I still have no idea if it's normal to get random pain where my port is located - I am guessing it's because I am losing weight and my body is changing, but honestly? Who knows).
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