Taking control... sorta, mostly, maybe.

So it was a rough week. So many contributing factors. We had a really big meeting at work this week, I started my period today (I know cliche, but true) and I was really struggling with the whole food, weight loss (or lack there of) thing. I haven't really been posting much because I have had to really think.

And miracle of miracles, I feel pretty good right now. I talked a lot with my support group (Kelly) and between her encouragement and the changes I am making and everything I have done I feel good. I see my doctor on Monday and have also booked time with the nurse.

It all comes down to the following (maybe all of you have figured this out,  but clearly I am slow on the food fact uptakes):

I've said it before, but I really really understand it. It's an equation. You can't put more food in than you burn. Ok. Fine. So what am I doing about that you say? Well, I have spent the last week journaling my food. Everything I consumed, I wrote down. It really is quite revealing, and makes you a little more hesitant on whether or not you really want to eat something. Also made me realize that I am not eating too horribly. But I will discuss all that with the nurse on Monday.

Another thing I realize is that when I am about to have my period, there will be no weight loss. sigh. So I am taking pictures tonight (please forgive the whole look) and hoping to see a slight difference. I am looking forward to Monday. I will be measured, and I will try to get some answers. After that appointment, I will decide whether or not I need to maybe go see a dietitian (at the OGH weight loss clinic).

OMG! I just looked at my picture from tonight. God, all I had to do was look at my pictures to see that there is progress happening. I have a collar bone! Holy SHIT! Anyways, all that to say that I am feeling good, I shouldn't compare myself to others (clearly an impossible task for me) and my journey will be what is will be.

Hope you enjoy these pictures as much as I did. First one is Oct 2010, second one is Jan 5, 2011, third one is January 24 and the fourth one is merely two weeks later (and oh what a difference) On Feb 5, 2011. BTW the last pictures I am wearing the official take a picture outfit.

Collar bone people, a freaking visible collar bone!!!