I'm out of the closet!

So yesterday I typed and I typed and there was no re-reading, no second guessing. I just put it out there and when it was all said and done, I posted it. Gulp, everyone now knows. I mean, I didn't really think that I was going to keep this a secret what with the weight loss I am experiencing. But I wasn't really keen on telling people either. I don't want to be deal with everyone's opinion. Not that I have gotten any grief. Frankly everyone around me is incredibly supportive. But I figure it's a bit like when you're pregnant and you choose the baby's name. I didn't want to tell people because inevitably, someone is going to give you their uncensored opinion. Whatever. So two years ago when I made this decision, I didn't really tell anyone that I put my name on that list. 6 months ago when they called me for my first consultation, didn't tell a soul. And two months ago when I went out of town for life altering surgery - nada. Not anyone. All these people in my life who don't know what I've done.

It was actually kind of hard for me, because I love - no, need to talk about what's going on in my life. I like getting people's weigh in, their opinion. But I never want people to think that I am harping. Never want to be that person who is ALWAYS talking about the same thing over and over. So, this is the best of both worlds. I get to say everything I want. Brag when it's going well, bitch when I am discouraged and not feel like I am imposing on anyone. You can read this or not. Nice.

Another reason I started this blog, is that I feel that there really isn't enough info/support for this surgery. Although I have no regrets and would do it all over again (exactly as it was, where it was), I think that the support and information is sorely lacking in the program they have in Drummondville. I mean, it says something that I have to travel just to get the surgery, right?

So I got the surgery, now what? Do I have to eat better? Eat differently? Will the weight still come off if I don't change a thing? Not that I want to proceed that way. I have been working hard for the last few years changing habits one at a time. I think all that work is paying off now, making it a lot easier to make the right choices, eat the right way. But no one really tells you what you should be doing. I ended up going to Dr. Bishop's weight loss clinic here in Ottawa. The diet is interesting, but not really geared for someone with a lap band. I am trying to adapt their recommendations to my new eating habits, but it is challenging, specially after an adjustment. But Dr. Bishop is really great and patient. He is more than willing to find fixes and adjust. Even though his program is not geared for lap-band patients, I am really glad to have someone in my city who has the knowledge.

Well, today is day 2 post fill. Things were a lot better today. I still wasn't ready to eat breakfast - things felt really tight when I woke up. But I was ravenous come lunch. I ate my 1/2 cup of pasta with pasta sauce, a cheese and an applesauce container. Thankfully I felt full with that. I did want more food though. I managed to also consume a Caramilk, a swedish berry and maybe 10 cashews. Dinner was no problem as well.

I am feeling a little challenged when it comes to being able to drink enough water. You are supposed to drink 1 hour before you eat, or 1 1/2 hours after you drink. Doesn't leave a whole lot of drinking time. Most of my water consumption happens after dinner and before bed.

I haven't figured out how to incorporate the whole excercise thing. I mean, where do people find the time??? I am patiently waiting for my friend Kelly to get her but back to work and force me to go walking at lunch time again. Kelly??? Keeeelllllllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?


Oh, I wanted to repost those pics I put up yesterday. I took some tonight to see if I could notice a difference. I know it's only 30lbs, but that's still not bad. So here we go:

On the LEFT is Me 2 days before surgery, on the RIGHT is me today (January 5, 2011)

Well there you have it. Maybe we can see better results in a few months. Can't wait!!!

Wow, is it just me or do I look like an idiot in the gray pants? I mean look at the side picture. Is that how pants are suppose to look? All hangy like that? Nothing like a profile picture; scratch that. nothing like studying pictures of yourself to get you feeling really good. I mean I had noticed that these pants were a lot looser around the thigh, and that they hung a little on the back part of my waist, but really? What's a girl suppose to walk around wearing so that she doesn't look like an idiot. God, I will definitely have to avoid seeing what the rest of my close looks like.